Mother's Day

I took these pictures of the girls on Mother's Day. I really wanted a picture with them, but Mark wasn't going to be home from his trip until late in the afternoon on Sunday, so this is what mattered to me at least - pictures of them. Our day started off hearing a good message at church about mothering without regrets (or as few of them as possible), and when Mark got home in the afternoon, I got some great cards and treats from he and the girls. Then, we went out to my mom and dad's house to have a Mother's Day dinner with the family.

I feel like a very lucky lady to be blessed with two wonderful little girls to be a mother to. I don't think I was ever the type to really aspire to being a mother. I have am amazing mother who sacrificed so much for our family, who was creative, fun, loving, and who saw the individuals within each of her kids. However, in my younger and early adult years, I never really thought I wanted to have kids when I got older. I wasn't against it completely, I just didn't think it was necessarily the thing for me. I did know in my heart though, if I ever did have kids, I'd want to take the job of being their mother seriously. I knew it was a big responsibility, and I didn't want to fall into the trap of taking it lightly. I think there are too many kids out there who grow up without a true sense of who they are because they were prodcuts of exactly that. So, I'm not sure what perception my kids have of me as a mom sometimes, I definitely don't know what others perceive of me as a mom, and sometimes I'm not really sure how I see myself in this role either. But, I will say that I don't think it really matters. I think all that really matters is waking up each day committed. Committed to God first, committed to Mark the girls, and committed to our family, friends, and the things that matter. So, I'm grateful that my mind changed about the idea of having kids. I'm very grateful for the two little girls we have, and I can honestly say that I wouldn't trade them in for the world!